my 4 years with him

it was love at first sight
and it all moved so fast
you were my girlfriend
before two weeks passed

we had the best relationship
anyone could ever hope for
we shared a love
i had never felt before

it all started so fast
the end was sudden too
and my only regret is that
i couldn't make it up to you

through our years
we shared amazing times
went amazing places
i was yours, you were mine

you inspired me and
we grew up together
over time i thought
it might last forever

but towards the end
i grew complacent
you stopped being affectionate
our communication grew distant

thats's when it all fell apart
and all i'm left with
is this broken heart
(and your shit in my garage)

still thinking of you

i haven't found anyone better for me than you
and i'm too stubborn to call you on the phone
i forgot how we got in this situation
but i think about you when i'm alone

i all too often dwell on the past
though i do so less every day
it's not that i haven't moved on
you just impacted my life that way

maybe we'll see each other again
but then again maybe not
and if that chance arises
i'd like to give it a shot

the hardest thing to do in life is say goodbye

today i learned a lesson
that will always be true
saying goodbye to someone
is the hardest thing to do

i've never felt a loss
until i said goodbye
i thought i was strong
and i broke down and cried

never will i forget
the times we had
though the reflections are happy
it makes me rather sad

the most brutal of men
cries at the past
i only wish
the good times would last

so i humor myself
i'd smile if i could
why can't things work out?
because life isn't supposed to be that good

will i ever love again

will i ever love again
a question on my mind
will i ever love another
like you in this life

if it was meant to be it'll happen
this is what i am told
but i fear i won't find another
and will die alone

will i ever love again
i really miss you now
will i ever love again
thinking about it just brings me down

i wake up at night
with sweat in my eyes
my heart starts pounding
and i begin to cry

well it's better to have loved
and i still have my memories
they'll always make me happy
and set my heart at ease

heartbreak

now i know (there's no hope)

you don't even know the pain i feel
when i start to question what is real
i know you're the cause
my lust for you gnaws
its way, through my brain
and i'm here, alone standing
by myself, with tears of understanding
rolling down my cheeks

now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love....
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
i don't blame thee
i blame myself for my insecurities

this time i'm really confused
about what i should do
i have this fear of never being satisfied
i can't find stable happiness,
i've tried and tried
this isn't easy,
i'm the butt of my own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope

now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love....
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
and i'll live my life until i die
wondering if i'll ever be satisfied
it's not easy being the butt of your own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope

love poems

A Special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

- Sheelagh Lennon -

A White Rose

The red rose whispers of passion,
And the white rose breathes of love;
O, the red rose is a falcon,
And the white rose is a dove.
But I send you a cream-white rosebud
With a flush on its petal tips;
For the love that is purest and sweetest
Has a kiss of desire on the lips.

- J B O'Reilly (1844-1890) -

thought it was love

i thought it was love
it was just bad luck
and i came to the conclusion
my love life really sucks
i'm not sure of my problem
it's gotta be me
maybe i'm too afraid
to face reality

i thought it was love
just my hormones kickin'
i look back at yesterday
oh what was i thinking

my fingers no longer count
the mistakes i have made
tears labeled why
seemed to end my day

and a beautiful girl
enters the room
her caring smile
ends my gloom
i get some affection
no longer am i broken hearted
it seems the cycle was just restarted